hit me baby one more time...

today was a total breakout from my mundane existence, as i got to play dodgeball with my coworkers. yes, dodgeball from the movie. club 650 in libis offers their facilities to emulate the famous game from the movie. and like the movie, our team was the underdog, who (somehow) emerged as winners at the end of the tournament. second place for the team who hasn't practiced and who only played the game for the first time. i was so thrilled playing and watching, i was shouting the whole time. well, screaming like a little girl would be the more appropriate description.

throwing the ball was the challenging part since the ball is so light, it's hard to throw it fast and straight. and my mind was spinning the entire time because i don't know whether to pay attention to my target or keep a close watch for opponents who'll try to attack me. but all in all, the experience was truly fun and memorable.

tracks of my tears

with the recent event in my life, people have been telling me that i should let it all out to make me feel better. i believed otherwise. that by keeping it inside, showing no remorse, anger nor regret, i'd convince myself that it would make me appear strong.

but my defenses went down yesterday. literally and figuratively. i contracted stomach flu so i went home after lunch and rested. i think the flu went too far and messed up with my emotional defenses and started crying at the slightest provocation of afternoon local tv dramas. i was struggling to keep the tears from falling (and to keep my wailing from waking up my housemates) but failed miserably. i then realized that by crying, it only meant that i already accepted my sad fate and that i need to move on. yes it's unfortunate that such thing happened to me (again), but i guess it's all part of the whole package. dealing with love has always been a gamble. if you're not brave enough to play, then stay away from the game.

i know love involves a lot of risks, but so does life in general. why be too afraid to risk when you have everything to gain in experience?

santa baby...

it's already christmas here in the philippines so it is time to unfold my christmas wishlist for this year (woohoo!!!):

1. Samsung i600 phone
2. Pair of Havaianas (in shade of brown or black)
3. Roundtrip ticket to Singapore or Bangkok
4. Couch for the condo
5. Leauparkenzo por homme
6. Braces (long overdue plan to get one)
7. Harry Potter DVDs 3 and 4
8. Playstation 2
9. Gola Gym/Overnight Bag

but of course, this list is still a work in progress... who knows, i might actually include WORLD PEACE in there!