may your days be merry and bright...

i'm wishing everyone a very happy christmas! i hope that you find joy not by the gifts that you received in a box, but by all the blessings, big or small that you received the entire year. gifts that brought you strength and wisdom that you may impart on others as well.

tonight, say grace, have fun (go easy on the alcohol), and indulge! :-)

i've experienced beyonce...

last night was definitely one of my highlights of 2007. my very first time to watch a foreign act and it's BEYONCE!!! i used to see her captivating performances only on tv but last night i was at the fort open field watching her live. she approached the stage around 8:30 pm in a sparkly silver gown (like in the promo material) and the crowd went wild. she perfomed her biggest hits, crazy in love (and gnarls barkley's "crazy"), freakum dress, green light, beautiful liar, naughty girl, me, myself and i, dangerously in love, upgrade u, ring the alarm, listen, irreplaceable (final number), and a medley of destiny's child songs (jumpin' jumpin', survivor, bug a boo). the all-girl band was impressive and each were given a moment's spotlight as beyonce prepares for her next set.

grabe, sobrang galing!!!

i've been to the beyonce experience... and it was worth it!!!

nais kong magpakalasing...

i never really knew my alcohol tolerance. i'm a social drinker and when i drink, i only drink up to the point of being tipsy. enough woozy feeling to wake up the follow day with a recollection of the night before without the unnecessary hangover.

but then last wednesday, i was invited to a halloween party, and one of the guys had this crazy idea of doing a "still standing" type of drinking game (thanks a lot, don!). the standard set consists of 10 drinks (including chasers). because of my weak liver, i had to lower it down a notch to 7 drinks (including water and chasers). i gulped and gulped up to the last glass and was victorious. for the first 20 minutes i was in full control. i was very much aware of what was going on. but the moment i stood up to move to another room i felt like i'm experiencing vertigo on acid! it was terrible and funny at the same time. i threw up around three times i think but it didn't seem enough to get rid of that awful feeling in my head. with enough determination, i kept myself from throwing up on the car that took me back to the condo.

the awful feeling went on until afternoon the following day. the whole experience was funny and all, but i swear not to ingest that much alcohol for the rest of my life.

nang minsa'y ako'y nagsenti...

yes, there was a time in my life that i felt totally in love. and a bit stupid, yes. but it's good in a way because love gives you the extraordinary feeling - feeling that you can do almost anything; in my case, write almost anything.

feel free to close the browser if you don't want to cringe upon reading this.

"nung unang beses pa lang kitang nakita, nagustuhan na kita. gusto lang kitang makilala nun at sapat na yun sa akin dahil alam kong hindi tayo magkaliga.

pero ang pagkakataon pinagtagpo ulit tayo. at natuklasan ko ang magagandang bagay sa iyo. pinakita mo rin na sa akin ang magagandang katangian ko - mga katangiang maski ako hindi ko alam na meron ako.

wala akong hinangad kundi maging masaya tayo pareho. kahit na ang ibig sabihin nun ay hindi magiging tayo. naiintindihan ko ang sitwasyon mo dahil hindi mo pa naranasang maging malaya. na kailangan mo munang maranasan ang iba ibang bagay sa ibang tao.

ayokong umiyak dahil ang ibig sabihin lang nun ay nilagyan ko na ng tuldok ang kung ano mang meron tayo. pero hindi ko maiwasang maisip na sayang dahil hindi ako ang taong nagbigay sa iyo ng tunay na kalayaan, bagkus ay nagparaya lang ako.

pero salamat at nagkaroon ng bagong kabuluhan ang buhay ko dahil sa mga nangyari."

everyone... repeat after me... EWWW!!! :-p

goodbye's the saddest word

i received some bad news from my mom. our pet, tanya, has passed away. she has been with us since I was in high school and has brought joy into our household. she has always been my dad's favorite pet whether he admits it or not. she's very sneaky and would steal food from our dining table when no one's looking. she's a neat freak, but always hated baths.

i'm just thankful that she passed away because of old age and not by some illness or accident. she will always be remembered and remain in our family's hearts forever.

farewell tanya.

hit me baby one more time...

today was a total breakout from my mundane existence, as i got to play dodgeball with my coworkers. yes, dodgeball from the movie. club 650 in libis offers their facilities to emulate the famous game from the movie. and like the movie, our team was the underdog, who (somehow) emerged as winners at the end of the tournament. second place for the team who hasn't practiced and who only played the game for the first time. i was so thrilled playing and watching, i was shouting the whole time. well, screaming like a little girl would be the more appropriate description.

throwing the ball was the challenging part since the ball is so light, it's hard to throw it fast and straight. and my mind was spinning the entire time because i don't know whether to pay attention to my target or keep a close watch for opponents who'll try to attack me. but all in all, the experience was truly fun and memorable.

tracks of my tears

with the recent event in my life, people have been telling me that i should let it all out to make me feel better. i believed otherwise. that by keeping it inside, showing no remorse, anger nor regret, i'd convince myself that it would make me appear strong.

but my defenses went down yesterday. literally and figuratively. i contracted stomach flu so i went home after lunch and rested. i think the flu went too far and messed up with my emotional defenses and started crying at the slightest provocation of afternoon local tv dramas. i was struggling to keep the tears from falling (and to keep my wailing from waking up my housemates) but failed miserably. i then realized that by crying, it only meant that i already accepted my sad fate and that i need to move on. yes it's unfortunate that such thing happened to me (again), but i guess it's all part of the whole package. dealing with love has always been a gamble. if you're not brave enough to play, then stay away from the game.

i know love involves a lot of risks, but so does life in general. why be too afraid to risk when you have everything to gain in experience?

santa baby...

it's already christmas here in the philippines so it is time to unfold my christmas wishlist for this year (woohoo!!!):

1. Samsung i600 phone
2. Pair of Havaianas (in shade of brown or black)
3. Roundtrip ticket to Singapore or Bangkok
4. Couch for the condo
5. Leauparkenzo por homme
6. Braces (long overdue plan to get one)
7. Harry Potter DVDs 3 and 4
8. Playstation 2
9. Gola Gym/Overnight Bag

but of course, this list is still a work in progress... who knows, i might actually include WORLD PEACE in there!

where do broken hearts go...

the road to recovery will always be the one that is hard to tread on. it's like taking a long walk to a familiar place, but this time you're walking barefoot. you will feel every bump, big or small, that you walk on. even though you have been on that road before, every heartbreak makes the journey unpredictable. how long will this journey take? how many bumps do you need to endure in order to find peace again? but then you need to move on or else you'll be forever stuck in melancholy.

but as you go through the bumpy road, eventually your feet would feel numb. until there's no more pain, no more hurting. then you will realize that the bumpy road you used to walk on is already behind you.

i better start walking.

easy like sunday morning...

friday is my favorite day of the week. it's my constant silver lining. everyone is in winding-down mode and it just feels good. you have all the right to party and have a relaxing day after.

and today, i don't have much workload to worry about and the team is having a lunch out and movie date afterwards. plus, we already have our monthly salary.

ahh... life is good.

stay with me

getting your own place can be both exciting and frustrating. at first i had a hard time moving away from my comfort zone (mom's home cooked meals, my dogs at home and the free stuff you get at home), but i can say that I have already adjusted. somehow this is already a dry run of what my life is going to be like once i'm old(er). but living away from home isn't that bad since i got to learn how to iron my clothes, cook my meals and budget my [very little] money. and it's quite an achievement for me that i get to survive somehow. since i have housemates, the burden isn't that hard because the expense and the hardwork is spread evenly among ourselves. i'm pretty blessed that i have housemates i can fully trust. they pay rent on time, they clean up their messes (well, after a bit of nudging), and they're simply good company. and with the arrival of our condo pet, crumpy, my stay couldn't be happier.

living away from home is not something that i recommend to everybody. it requires a lot of patience and hard labor (especially if you have room mates to deal with). but it develops in you a lot of discipline to get through life's daily challenges.

It's the same old song...

When people ask me the generic question, "Kamusta?" I always tend to say, "Nothing much." I never realized that I'm actually doing a lot these days! Morning is always spent on gym and chores. Time at work is always a good combination of physical/mental labor, training and interaction. When I get home, it's chores once again and a little relaxation time. Friday is my quality time with friends. On weekends I always have dance practice. Sunday I have my baking time.

Maybe I've never seen my life in the eyes of other people. To them, I have always been up and about, always needing to do something as if my life relies on it. Maybe what I'm doing has been routinary that it no longer excites me. Although in the end, the decision's all mine on whether I want my life to be one big routine or a life well spent.

i'm a little bit of crazy... a little bit of a fool...

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last dance

i just finished my very last focus group. i was trying to savor the whole experience awhile ago knowing na it'll take a long while before i do this again. i must admit that this is a very interesting job, with people na hindi ko na yata mae encounter sa isang company. sabi nga ng friend ko, it's time to move away from my comfort zone para mag grow. and i totally agree with her. wala namang major regrets. just a bit sad na i have to go through the entire sets of farewells. panibagong tao na naman ang pakikisamahan, new boss na pagsisilbihan, new sets of lunchmates, new sets of workload. the list goes on and on. i just hope na magkaroon rin ako ng comfort zone sa bago kong lilipatan...

one can only hope.

may cookie na pala ako

three weeks ago ay bumili ang nanay ko ng oven na matagal na naming pinapangarap. kahapon lang namin nagamit, so ito ang finished product (ika nga ni ricky reyes sa kanyang show) ...



in fairness, edible siya, despite minor errors in preparation. nagustuhan naman ng aking mga kasambahay. ano naman kaya ang next project ko?

done... finished...the end

i think i finally got the closure that i'm seeking from donnie (yes, the guy who must not be named). he kept on bugging me yesterday at YM and in my mobile phone so finally i agreed to talk to him, thanks to my beau for talking me into it.

he must have misinterpreted what we have as "friendship" where in fact, i'm getting rid of him because we're not actually friends. well if ever that was friendship, it's very superficial. i already have a lot of superficial friends so i don't need another one. the conversation was very civil, and so were our goodbyes. but the good thing is, everything was clear and that we can both live in peace. it would be very hard to deal with my current relationship if my past still haunts me up to now.

i'm very happy that my bf is very supportive in so many ways, even in dealing with my excess baggages. i'm loving him more and more, not regretting the day i said "yes."

the trouble with hello is goodbye

2007 started on a sad note here at work since two of our team mates have found a new company to work for. it is quite unfortunate to be losing such valuable team members at the time when we feel that we've gelled as a team and as friends. but it's something we need to swallow and accept whole heartedly.

ako man nagkakaron na rin ng pagdadalawang isip whether to stay or leave this year. pero ang sunod kong pupuntahan, hindi ko pa alam. my constant worries about my not so distant future always gets me to consider working for another company.

sana naman kung saan ako mapunta next, magkaroon din ng ako ng ganito kababait na mga kasama.

bagong blog sa bagong taon

isa na namang panibagong taon! nawa'y naging makabuluhan ang nakaraang taon para sa inyo gaya ng ito'y naging makabuluhan sa akin.

at syempre, sana mas maging maganda ang taong ito para sa ating lahat - sa kahit ano'ng aspeto ng ating buhay.

i just turned 26 a few weeks ago - maraming salamat sa lahat ng nakaalala't bumati nung aking kaarawan. may nagsabi nga sa akin, "welcome to the late 20's! matanda ka na rin!" oh well, age is just a number, i can always be immature if i want to, hehehe!

hindi ko alam kung ano'ng naghihintay sa taong ito pero nananatili lang akong optimistic and hopeful. so should the rest of us.

i'm looking forward to new things this year! para sa mga kaibigan at kakilala ko, nawa'y mag-krus ang ating mga landas (in a good way) nitong taong ito!